My news

I haven't been here for a while, but I've come back now. Well, actually I have a lot of things to tell you. So many things to tell, that I don't even know with which one I should start my story.
Let's try to speak in order.
Firstly, I visited the Zilantkon festival at the begining of November. It was in Kazan, so I had to go there for a few days. Actually I like Kazan, and I go there every year (because of that festival, of course).
Also I should say that our party's show, which I mention below, was excellent!
My new job is still amazing, but I'm not sure that I will be able to keep up such rhythm of my life.
By the way, this weekend we have a first night in our dance school; a new play. It will be beautiful, I guess, but I'm not very fond of it. I wish I could love baroque dancing as much as I love Irish dancing.. To be truthful, speaking about this is sore spot for me, so I'd better speak about something else.
Our art director is off her trolley a bit because of this new show, so dance classes are not as amazing as I want them to be. I mean they are too short, because of rehearsals and so on..
Well, I guess this is all my news. I'll tell you about some of them in detail soon, but now, I just want to finish up this post ))

Have a nice day!


P.S. This a picture from Kazan. (Actually we spoiled our show, but I will tell you this story some other time))

Hard shoooeeeeeYES!

Oh, these days I have a lot of hard shoe training. Well, in all honesty, we have a genius of a teacher, but there is no teacher who can teach someone who doesn't want to be taught. So every day, after folk or classical training I stay one-on-one with my hard shoes and tap, tap and tap.

And now I know, that if someone wants to be slim they should start classical and tap dancing. Oh, yes.
My problem is that I go out at nine o'clock and return home only at midnight. The good thing is that I at last can do our number even blindfolded. Well, that's all my news for now, so I'll keep up my work.

The Dark Lord

"Well, do you seriously think that this is a reason to interrupt me?" - his voice was perfectly calm, and there was no sign of pleasantness in his intonations.
"But, my Lord, he will arrive in few minutes, what could I do?!" - he tried to smile while his voice was trembling.
The Dark Lord took a deep breath and immediately replied: "I can't stand one thing: I'm the Darkest Lord of the World, but why, please tell me, why my servants can't deal with an assessor without my interference?! Every year the same situation: bills and taxes! Even here I have no rest at all! It's settled then, take my clothes and receive the guest. Now, you are the Dark Lord, and I'm leaving, I've had enough!!"

I fell down

Today I fell down and sprained my ankle again. When I was a child I used to sprain my ankles every other week because I have very elastic and soft muscles and ligaments.
The worst part is that I sprained it during our rehearsal, so I had to finish rehearsal with my sprained leg.. and of course hard shoes.. I learned a new hard-shoes number, so I have no time to recover. I just tied my ankle with an elastic bandage went back to dancing again..
And there is a performance on 15th October. And a ball on 16th. And a festival in Kazan on 2nd November. And a parody show on 9th. Oh, how I hate my body sometimes!
The only good thing is that tomorrow I have the day off from dance practice, so I have at least one day to recover.

Dancing. New timetable

It's horrible!
They've changed a lot of important things.
There is only an hour of Irish dancing, soft shoes, a week. And only an hour and a half of hard shoes a week. But that's not the worst thing. The worst thing is on Sundays. On Sundays we start dancing at 11.30 and finish at 6 p.m (not to mention rehearsals!)!
These are our classes on Sunday:

11.30 Classical (ballet)
13:00 – Folk dances
14:00 - Baroque
15:00 - Flamenco
16:30 – Hard shoes Irish
18:00 (The first year students, thank God it's not me)
19:00 - Rehearsal time

Oh, yes, I almost forgot. We have two days off a week, now on Monday and Friday. Good Lord, I don’t know how I can go through with this schedule.

Three things

There are three things which are the hardest to say: "I love you", "forgive me" and "I need your help". (c)
As for me, I have no trouble with the first and the second, but really never can say the third. Even if I need help. Even if I need it too much.
It used to be very difficult, but these days I have friends, who can help, even if I don't ask. So, I think friends are the people who always know when you need help. And I am usually not asked for help - I just help if I see that I can.
So, three ideas:
1. Friends are people who know when you need help and help you without asking stupid questions.
2. If you see someone in trouble and can help out - just do it, without thinking or asking for reward.
3. I should finally learn how to speak about my feelings and worries, at least with people who are close to me.

A modern women (something about my life particularly)

What a difficult work it is to be a woman in our days!
There is proverb which says that some women are created for love, and other women are created for work. I'm afraid that in my case the truth is the second variant. Every day I have my job and university. It's a necessary part of life as there is no life without education and no life without money, unfortunately. (I don't mean that money is the most important thing in life of course!)
Then I have something for my soul, it's dancing mainly and some other things like reading, knitting, guitar, writing, photography, fancywork and so on. To be truthful none of these things take a lot of my time except dancing. As for dance lessons, I have them every day; to be more precise, every evening.
And of course, such things as housework. Frankly speaking, I don't like it very much (and who does? :) ) but I don't like chaos at my place either. So I have no choice but to clean and wash all this.
Then there are my friends. I can't say that I have a lot of them, but all of them are trusted, and I really miss them when we have no opportunity to meet.
But the main idea is, that I can hardly imagine a man who could stand all this things about me :D
I mean the reverse of such life is my absolutely business and being dead tired in evenings. I understand all this, but I cannot find the thing I can live without. On the other hand, I feel that I cannot be alone any more either! I just don't know what can I do.

Feeling blue

I returned to Moscow a week ago, and I feel so tired these days. Cleaning, fixing computers and so on - all these things must be done, and I hardly can find time to sleep and eat during the day. I've found a new job, and of course I still have my dance-classes. Today at last I can have some rest, and I'm quite glad, but I understood, that I'm feeling blue and lonely, there is even nobody to speak to. I guess It's the reverse of being busy - all your friends find somebody to communicate while you have other things to do. There is the only one decision - to go to sleep, after I finish my embroidery for today..

What is the right way to live?

The only right way to live is your own. Do you agree?
In my case, it's the only truth. Everything you do in your life is right, even if it is a mistake. Your own mistake, you know, and it means that you have an experience which nobody else in the world has.
Your life is an extraordinary one. Nobody has ever had such a life, and nobody will ever have it.
This fact doesn't mean that you have to forget the experiences of previous generations, no. All that you read, listened to and learnt are your own knowledge, so you act as only you can act, and you will live as only you can.
Don't try to build your fortune like "that successful boy" or "that talented girl" , otherwise you will lose your way. I think that's the only thing worth regretting.

Well, in my opinion dancing is the only thing worth living for.
But, unfortunately I started to dance too late. I mean there are no professional dancers who started their trainings at their 20th.
Many people start dancing as a hobby at an older age than me, I know it. But, they never become professional. As for me, I want more.
To be objective: I can do the splits, I have good instep, turnout and ballet step (Heh, I don't know how does it called in English. I mean the ability to rise one's leg in the femoral joint) I really work hard. Every day I have a class or two. But, to become a dancer I have to work even harder, but I can't because I have no place and time. That's really sad.
If I could only have a chance to dance more...